Speaking Freely

“I want a man that isn’t threatened by my mind, but enticed by it. A man that must know its every thought.”

There are many moments that a slave seems to have no voice. All the public sees is a woman, often replying in a predetermined way. A Master’s word is never questioned, never disobeyed, and certainly, never has to be repeated. For many outsiders, a slave appears to have no voice at all. This isn’t the case in the reality of the relationship, or its dynamic, as there’s much to it. As a slave, there are certainly things one doesn’t or does particularly say. I’d like to point out that as a slave, I’d more willing describe this as things I particularly say. My Master doesn’t discourage my statements or opinion, but rather encourages complete sharing of thoughts. That’s important to remember, above all else, Masters encourage the sharing of opinions and thoughts.

Speaking freely, is the most important command a Master could probably give. It speaks to more than just the ability of a slave to voice words. There is the security in it, that one will not be punished, as long as the words are honest. My Master would rather know my thoughts, than punish me for a “wrong” one. With this command, there is no wrong thought or question that could ever exist. This creates a deep bond, as every thought is shared, considered, and then examined. No one should ever know a slave’s mind like their Master does. In my case, the bond my Master has with me on this level, is extremely strong. My thoughts just naturally are shared with him. At times, he even examines them in front of me, for my own sense of value to be increased. I better know myself, because my Master simply tells me to speak freely. That is always a command, never just an option or choice to be made.

In the security of speaking freely, there is also a deeper meaning. I must be confident in myself, and my words, as this will come across immediately. One cannot fake confidence in their tone of voice, especially in front of their Master. Any Master at all, will immediately be able to discern things like doubt, shame, or guilt. My words, when spoken freely, must speak true, or else they are useless. To violate this command by being dishonest, is a severe grievance against my Master. Withholding words, at the same time, is also breaking this command, and will be found out immediately. This isn’t to say opinions can’t be dragged out of me, but they must still be spoken. There’s a lot that goes into a command with only two or three words. Building up the mentality of truly speaking freely, takes an event that shows absolute trust. Once that happens, a slave can never break this command, their fate is sealed to it.

There is also, a slight comfort in hearing those words repeatedly. Those words allow me, as a slave, to relax slightly in others company. Being able to share my opinion freely with others, allows me to explore my traits as a slave. If talking to another Master, I know I can ask questions, share advice, or give comment. In a situation lacking this command, I often wait, sitting there trying to keep my mouth shut. Even if it is okay to truly share my opinion, I often wait for the command itself to be spoken. It is a mental switch, a capable way to notice my training, especially in the company of others. At times, I even ask questions to hear the command spoken. A part of me, as slave, needs to hear the command, it’s an outright need. This may be hard for others to understand, but it is honest. I need at times, to speak my mind, knowing I am cleared from what I say having a negative impact on myself.

Speaking freely, is an important command, one that is never taken lightly. A slave will hear the command multiple times a day, while being limited very few. In fact, I have yet to hear my Master give a direct command to silence me. For people outside the community, I can’t stress that enough. I’m reinforced with good behavior, sharing opinions, not limited and silenced. There is truly a free, relaxation that happens when a Master says just those two or three words. I treasure hearing them every time, almost as much as my Master treasures saying them. In that moment, there is a connection, an understanding, that transcends those words. My Master will never let me forget why he says them, and I will never the openness in which I obey them.

Best of Interests

“There is no secret in you that I will not eventually find out. I will drag it out of you, if only to savor your resistance to it.”

It is an interesting thing to listen to two Masters talk to one another. The conversation at times will seem completely normal, and then shift quite quickly. To explain this to those who have not experienced it, in a way, it’s like a family discussion. There are subjects everyone will understand, but some subjects, have built up over time. Getting to listen to these conversations as a slave, and even contribute, has been extremely eye opening and rewarding. There’s no shield or barrier in place, and so the conversation happens to flow quite smoothly. Compared to other conversations, ones between Masters, can be quite open. With a slave present, Masters are quick to remind them of their place. This is actually done naturally, and would go unnoticed by most, as it is hidden in the pattern of such openness.

One of the things I discovered, has been the drive of a slave is quite strong. There is always the sexual component, but there is always another motivation. Slaves can give their Master their unique outlook, usually one of the opposite sex, which provides much needed information. The better informed a Master is, the better his choices are weighed then carried out. While a slave may see a minor detail, in reality, it can be quite important. This process takes time, but only a Master will be able to mold his slave’s knowledge. My Master has encouraged my every thought, especially sharing my thoughts lately. He wishes to understand the way I work, and how I see things. In working out my thoughts with him, I am also able to see what he wishes. My understanding grows, as it has recently grown to understand an important detail.

Slaves are loyal to their Master, and they serve only one, there can be no others. This doesn’t mean however, that a slave cannot wish a different Master to succeed. When a Master thrives, slaves in general thrive, and in return, the cycle repeats itself. Some men are natural Masters, but do not know the finer details of it. At times, these men lose their way, and slaves seem to pick up on this. A slave could and usually does, gravitate towards a broken Master, wanting to build him back up. The way this is done however, often is determined by the slave’s own Master, who understands such a process. A slave is a tool, a means, a seducing force to tempt the Master back to his reality. At the end of the day, there is no conflict of interest with her Master, as it is her Master’s wishes being carried out.

The important thing to remember, is that a slave belongs to one Master only. If, at any time, a slave crosses a line, her Master can remind her who owns her. While others may see an issue, there really is no issue at all. The way a Master offers his slave in such matters, actually shows a true trust. A slave sees and learns all of this, if they care to take it in for themselves. Coming to these conclusions will happen at one point or another, but they add immediate value. There ways its application shows immediately. A Master knows all anyway, and will quickly discover the issue resolved in the slave’s mind. No topic is ever off limits to discuss with a slave’s particular Master, not even the subject of other Masters. In fact, a slave will find hiding anything, is the truest cause for concern.

Exposure to other Masters, can be both exciting and nerve racking. There are times a slave’s knowledge is increased, and other times they are left confused. It is through this confusion that thoughts must be shared with the slave’s Master. He knows her, and will work out the true meaning of her confusion. In my case, I discovered the true cause was a question of loyalty. It is possible to build up two Masters, if wished by the one who owns the slave. At times, this is even expected, and a great gift to give on a Master’s behalf. A slave’s actions should show according to their knowledge, as recognition is important. My Master taught the lesson well, letting me see it in a way that brought more value. There was both his understanding, and his protection. This time, the protection was actually from myself, and a sense of guilt I thought I should have carried. Turns out, the feeling was wanted all along, it’s actually desirable.

Topping from Below

“I have come to crave my punishments, for they are bliss, and music to my ears.”

Before becoming a slave, I had never heard of topping from below. I should point out this is amazing, because I was in D/S relationships. This, for those who didn’t know either, can be viewed as a huge problem. Learning what topping from below is all about, can be a bit embarrassing actually. My Master swears this is a normal, healthy, and expected quality or behavior I will always express. In his eyes, there’s absolutely nothing to be embarrassed about. As a slave, I can’t help but feel a slight pain of regret, at least when displaying this behavior. There’s many layers as to why I’m inclined to feel regret, but in my slavery, comes recognizing those layers. If I think of even a small insignificant experience related to an emotion, my Master needs to hear about it. That’s the way my Master taught me about topping from below, and expressing my emotions.

As part of my training, I suppose my Master wanted to know when I’d test him. I was a very new slave, and I had high hopes of never failing a task. This a dream most slaves have, being perfect from the beginning, and it will never be the case. My Master, because he knows me better than I do, decided to test me. I know now why he did this, as it taught many lessons in one action. Still though, I don’t want anyone thinking my Master is cruel, so I had to say it. Anyway, I wanted to know a particular fact about my Master, which he decided to withhold. This withholding was worse than a simple no, as I wanted to know, well, when I wanted to. Slaves cannot demand anything, and I was being a spoiled slave, throwing my first fit. I’d like to hope this fit was a mild one, but it was what my Master had wanted all along.

There was a punishment for topping from below, which was well established. When a slave, like myself, tries to top their Master, it is for security. Submissives try to top from below, because they desire to truly have their way. A slave however, tries to top her Master, knowing she should fail. It’s her way of begging to be reminded of her place, sometimes because the Master wishes it. My Master, I can only imagine, was more than happy to know I wanted to test his strength. This was not an insult, but merely a condition of becoming his completely dependent slave. One cannot be a slave, unless the ties of ownership cannot be fought out of. Resisting is a wonderful thing to a Master’s eyes, but for a slave it can be quite shocking. I honestly didn’t even recognize that’s what I was doing at all.

When my Master took time to explain why I was being punished, I was actually overjoyed. My first punishment was a slight dread in my mind, as I worried over it. I was delighted to learn my punishment, meant I was completely forgiven. There was never a wrong committed against my Master, only an action that required addressing. Punishments were actually part of being a slave, and not looked at badly or with distaste. For me, this was an extremely important lesson that I needed to learn early. My past did not allow for this thought to naturally occur, but that has since been corrected.At times, I swear my Master peers into my soul, sees a barrier, and knocks it down for me. I swear that my Master does this with an ease unknown to any man before him, and I love him all the more for it.

Topping from below is actually an interesting phrase, and an important concept. Slaves should never intentionally do this, but unintentionally, it’ll happen. This provides the Master a perfect time to teach a slave her place. What my Master did for me when he wouldn’t let me top him, was the surest sign of understanding. Any Master can sign a slave to himself, but not every Master can take a slave, and handle her initial resisting. To come out on top of his slave, a Master must truly be completely capable. In a slave’s eyes, the defeat of their action, is bliss and comfort. There is no shame in trying to accidentally top my Master, as I know he will always set me right. The lessons learned in moments like this, for a slave, are irreplaceable, and add to their value. I am made better by my punishments, and my understanding.